In the end…

…everything works out.

I’ve always considered myself a pessimist. And I am, in certain ways. But I’ve realised that deep inside of me an optimist is hiding. Because I always have this feeling (even if it never shows itself much) that everything will work out in the end. Things’ll get better.

No matter how depressed I might be feeling, at a certain time, I always know that things will get better. They have to. It might take a while, but it won’t be like this forever. I think that’s why I probably never fall into the deep pit of ‘Everything sucks’, ‘There’s nothing worth living for’… Because I think there are several things worth living for, even the simple things like enjoying a dinner with friends, reading a good book, watching a great movie. Travelling, seeing new places. Being with your family and friends… I could go on and on.

I’m feeling this optimistic at the moment because I was up until half an hour ago despairing of having my place in order before my family arrives on Wednesday. But a man working for the same organisation as I do is buying a house, and he’s getting the keys on Tuesday. Since he has no furniture at all, two free couches are great for him. You see what I mean with things working out? It’s a bit last minute and I’ll have to scramble to have everything setup in the evening for when my family comes, but at least the couches will be out of the apartment.

I just hope I’m not celebrating too early and something goes wrong now. (See, there’s the pessimistic side.)

Currently reading:
Dissolution by C.J. Sansom
Status of couch: Still not assembled
Status of MS#2: Taking a short break before starting revisions, will start once family has come and gone. In the meanwhile I’m scribbling notes in preparation for MS#3 (the ideas just won’t leave me alone! I think I look forward to writing this because my heroine is quite different from the first two. Sure, the first two were different from each other, but both were fairly level-headed…)


If you thought my livingroom looked bad on yesterday’s picture you should see it today. Or actually, you shouldn’t.

I’ve had to bunch my old furniture in a corner so that a guy can come and pick it up tomorrow. My TV and DVDs are on the floor (since I’m getting rid of the tv-table, but the new one isn’t done yet… that one is lying face down on the floor waiting for me to finish with it), the new coffee table is shoved off to the side with the remaining parts of the tv-table on it.

Oh, and let’s not forget that my couch is still spread in pieces along one wall.

Oh! Oh! And my dining table and chairs are in the bedroom since I can’t fit them in the livingroom until the old stuff is gone!

Sounds beautiful, doesn’t it?

I’m planning to have it all sorted by the end of the weekend though. Fingers crossed, please! Because Wednesday evening next week some of my family is coming to visit for Easter, and I want my apartment to look really nice for when they come. (Vanity I guess.)

I promise to write about more interesting stuff eventually. It’s just that I have time for little else right now but work and try to sort out my apartment when I get home.

What I’m currently up to
Watching on DVD: Dead Like Me, season 1 (one episode to go!)
Addicted to: LOST, CSI, Medium
Listening to: Simple Plan
Reading: The Silver Rose by Susan Carroll
Writing: Revising TAMING OF THE RAKE (and I had that title before Eloisa James’ new book! It’s not a rip-off! But I guess it’s time to find a new title now though… *lol*)

Surprise, Surprise

I think that one would say that surprises are usually a nice thing. Or at least I like to think so. Not always though. I had a somewhat nasty one today. Saturday I did go to Ikea and I ordered the couch I wanted. Today it was delivered… In pieces!! Who in the world delivers a couch in pieces!? (Well, IKEA apparently.)

So instead of being able to sit on a nice, comfy couch today, this is my current one…

You may not be able to tell, but this is a couch. IKEA style.

Lovely, isn’t it?

Doesn’t it look exquisite? And can you see the lovely colour? No? Oh well… that might be because the covers are stacked in a box somewhere and wrapped in ten layers of plastic!!!

And you know what tops the chart? You have to be two people to put it together. In case you didn’t know… I live alone. My family is in another country. Well done, Em! One would think that the furniture store could have warned me. Oh, by the way… We’ll send your couch in bite-size.

Fortunately I bought a chair too.. so I have something to sit in. Not the same as crawling up into a nice, comfy couch though…

Ok, going to stop whining now. But I’m still growling… Even if just a little…


… or the lack of it. I thought about it when reading something my sister wrote about not having much of a life. So I started to think about my life. Do I have one?

Well, I’d like to believe so. Maybe it’s a life that’d bore some people, but then I’m sure that their lives would bore me.

I enjoy the simple pleasures. Like writing, reading… watching a good movie. Now and then I like meeting a friend for a coffee or dinner. Or going to the cinema. This life might seem boring to those who love to surround themselves with people and friends at all times, people who love to go out drinking and dancing (I like going out for a drink.. but once every 6 months or so is sufficiently often for me; dancing? Forget it!) Then there are the people who love going to the gym, they do it several times a week. I’m sorry, I must admit that I never managed to find any joy in that. It bores me to death. Sure, I’ll go rollerblading in the park, or take a walk.. but push myself into a gym? Never.

I love spending hours writing… Creating characters, plots and events. That’s what I do. While others might go crazy by being alone, I fill the lonely hours with imaginary people (no, I’m not insane, send those men in white coats back where they came from!). We all have our own pasttimes I guess.

Bored yet? I don’t blame you.

Today I was planning to go into town to look for some office clothes, but when it comes down to it I can’t be bothered. Next weekend (or possibly tomorrow) will be soon enough. This afternoon however I am going to go and buy a new couch. I’m very much looking forward to some changes in my livingroom. I think it’ll look much better once I’m done. (Though I don’t look forward to having to put the new tv-bench together piece by piece… That’s IKEA furniture for you… Do it yourself!)

What kind of things bore you? Reading blogs? How do you fill your spare time (you know, those few hours between coming home from work and bed time.. I think there’s about 10 of them in a full week… *sigh*)

The Length of Books

Have you ever thought about how long a book is? Yes, it’s 400 pages, or 236 or whatever. But how long did it take you to read? I’ve realised that some books take a whole lot longer to read than others. Isn’t that odd?

I read the latest Harry Potter in 2.5 days. That was 500 pages or so. I’m currently reading a book called Blackbird House, which is really good, but it’s taken me two weeks already and I’m not even halfway. This book is maybe 250 pages. Isn’t it funny how we read some books quicker than others? Or at least I do. Admittedly it might also have something to do with the fact that I don’t have a lot of time to read at the moment. I used to read for an hour before going to sleep, but because of lack of time I now spend that hour writing on my manuscript instead of reading. So my reading time is currently varying between limited and non-existing.

But that’s the thing though, isn’t it? When it comes to certain books we make time. It doesn’t matter if we have to clean our house, cook dinner, or whatever it is that you currently need to do. You still read.

I have a few authors I read where I have that. I just put everything aside when something comes out and read their new book. Those authors are J.K. Rowling (of course), Julia Quinn and Teresa Medeiros. Any other author I can somehow contend myself for a bit before opening that book. Some authors I might not be able to put down once I start, but I can put off the starting. These three authors though. I don’t know why, but I’m unable to not read them.

Does anyone else have something similar to this? Do you read some books quicker than others? Are there authors that you simply cannot put off reading?

A New Year, A New Beginning

And so we enter the year 2006… After having had a fairly bad 2005 for various reasons I’m hoping that this year will be better. Or rather, I will endeavour to make it better.

2005 wasn’t all bad of course. I did finish my first manuscript which is an accomplishment I have to admit I’m quite proud of. I went on holiday to Florida which is always pleasant and my family visited in The Netherlands a couple of times.

2006 however is going to be even better. I want to finish my second manuscript as well as start sending my first out to publishers and agents. I also want to try and regain the control I feel like I’ve lost over my life. My problem is still finding out exactly what I want to do, but I do know that I don’t want to keep working where I am, since it’s making me miserable.

After several months of not writing on my manuscript, I’m going to start again. I worked on the overview/synopsis yesterday since I have to do a lot of tedious changes to what I have so far and I need to have a good idea before I start. This is done, so now I should get started on what needs to be changed. It’s going to be hell doing it, but I think the manuscript will look all the better once it’s done.

So… Year of 2006… Be prepared because here I come!

The answer to everything: A cup of tea?

I’ve realised that in one way I’m kind of British. Only recently have I noticed that whenever someone is upset or crying, emotionally not quite tip top (and I never know how to handle that) I always end up asking ‘Would you like some tea?’

I find this rather amusing. As if a cup of hot tea would really help them with whatever is bothering them. But it’s the only thing I can think to do. I’m not good at comforting someone who’s crying or upset. Sure, I can listen… (I’m hell of a listener) But actually comforting… I don’t know. How do you do that? A hug seems so trivial… and going ‘there.. there..’, well what good will that do?

So… I offer tea.

I’m not saying this is a whole lot better, but it’s what I do. And somehow it seems to work, even if just a little. It seems to put people’s mind to something else, and who knows, maybe there is some kind of calming drug in tea. At least it seems to help people in that they get something to hold and concentrate on.

So that’s it. The answer to everything: A cup of tea.

Let There Be Rain…

And so the winter weather has begun to set in… I will be very honest with you; I do not like the winter. At all. It’s dark, it’s cold and it’s horrible. Winter is a time of the year when I wish I could just stay inside, light a fire and spend the next three or four months happily ensconced on the couch with a cup of tea and a good book (or a couple of good movies, or why not both?)

In The Netherlands (where I’m seriously wondering if I want to stay) winter means dark and rainy. At least in Sweden (where I grew up) we get snow, which (even though it’s none the warmer) at least lights things up a little. Here it’s just gloomy and damp. Oh, and let’s not forget the hail! I was pelted by the pesky little things when I was walking home from work the last couple of days! And not tiny ones either, huge ones… The size of small puppies! Oh ok… Maybe not quite that big, but you get the picture. It hurts when these hit you on the top of the head!

I will simply have to steel myself and will the next few months to go quickly. With a nice break for Christmas which is a holiday I enjoy very much, so time can go a bit slower for a few days there. (5 weeks and counting!)

Status of synopsis: This is getting embarrassing…

Assorted Thoughts

It’s weekend! (which means no work… huzzah!)

Today it is exactly six weeks until Christmas. Which really means that Christmas is quite soon… This knowledge fills me with childlike glee and makes me positively giddy. Quite sad one might think, but personally I’m just glad that one can still be happy for such small things.

I went to IKEA today with my sister and they had all of their beautiful Christmas decorations out for sale. I’ve decided that this year I simply MUST have a little Christmas tree. I can get lots of nice decorations at IKEA and it’ll all be going up on December 1st and stay until New Year’s! What can I say? I love Christmas and I want to be in the spirit of it as soon as I can.

The other day I went into town to look for a winter coat. I met with less success there than at IKEA. For some reason I couldn’t find a single one that I contemplated buying for more than about five seconds (which is what it took me to get a little closer for a good look). The one that I actually thought was ok my sister said was too similar to hers, so I couldn’t possibly buy that one. (Hmm…?)

I’ve reserved tickets to see Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire on opening night. (Which is 23 November, about a week later than the rest of the world… I’m very upset!) I must admit, I’m a huge Harry Potter fan. I buy the books the moment they’re out and I watch the movies as soon as I possibly can. If that makes me into an outgrown child, then so be it. (Besides, Jason Isaacs as Lucius Malfoy is very, very … um, very… sexy.)

I’ve bought the first five seasons of Buffy the Vampire Slayer on DVD. (It’s a guilty pleasure of mine…) and just started watching them. Very sad the whole Buffy-Angel thing, but I just have to say that Spike is yummy-yummy. (He just arrived in Sunnydale, insane-Drusilla and all.) Oh, and Xander is cute.

Been buying some CDs as well. (I don’t know what’s gotten into me…)
1. Nickelback – All the Right Reasons
2. Robbie Williams – Greatest Hits
3. Green Day – American Idiot
4. The Corpse Bride (Soundtrack)
5. Pride & Prejudice (Soundtrack)

Status of Synopsis: Still not started. *sigh* I have absolutely no inspiration. Maybe I should just dig a large hole and jump in.


This should have been written several days ago probably, but better late than never, right? I had a small Halloween party and we actually dressed up (not something you see here a lot, I want to be in America for Halloween next year!)

Anyway, I thought I’d post some of our photos. We had a really great time though. We watched two movies (one horror, one comedy), ate lots of unhealthy food and had lots of fun. Exactly how it’s meant to be 🙂

The group (dressed up ones), me, my sister and my friend.

Watch it, or I’ll poke ya!

If I blow long enough, will it fly away?

Status of Synopsis: *cough* Still not started…. *cough*